Saturday, 11 October 2008

sucking


Well.

Eleanor is now being fed by nasal tube. She's had the tube in he left nostril; but last night they changed the feeding tube to the right nostril and she is labouring alittle more with her breathing; which implies that it is the left onethat is narrowest. They are waiting until Monday, when her antibioticswill finish, to make an assessment about whether she will be able tofeed by sucking or not.

She is taking feeds well - 36ml every three hours; a baby of thatsize feeding every three hours normally would take about 45 or 50mlapparently, so that's good.

Basically we are waiting for her to get over the chest infection she seems to have been born with, to see what happens.

B has a cold, which means he can't go in to the ICU to see her,and they don't really want us to cuddle her out of the incubatoranyway, so that she can 'chill out and rest'.

We're okay; withinexpected parameters, anyway. I'm awfully weepy, but mostly coping okaywith that, as I know it's the hormones.We have decided to come home and are going to and fro daily, as theyhave said that B can no longer stay at the hospital because sheisn't a 'critical case' and I don't feel able to stay there on my own.
I am feeling better this morning - got verytired last night and had a shit-fit on a bossy sister at the hospitalwho tried to tear a strip off me for going AWOL the night before -apparently the message that we weren't coming back didn't get there. Iended up having hysterics on the Ante-natal ward, packing my back andmarching out, sobbing, trailing a tail of confused midwives.

That my milk's come in, obviously goes without saying, given the above.The unit have lent me an electric breast pump that I'm getting on okaywith. Ma and Sister Natalie are talking about going home for a few days now andmaybe coming back mid-week. I don't think we can make any plans, we'vejust got to take each day as it comes.

Thank you everyone, for all your good wishes. They're one of thethings keeping us going. We are still dealing with mortgage people andthe receivers and all that completely irrelevant bollocks in the meantime, and trying to move therest of the stuff out of the old house before they demand the keysback.

I am trying to look on it all as an opportunity to fund my ability to deal with stress.

Gah.


18 comments:

  1. Love to all of you, especially Eleanor Rose. I know you are worried and stressed. It will all be fine soon and you will have your whole family home.

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  2. Aww, the little darling. I'm thinking of you all.

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  3. Aww, the little darling. I'm thinking of you all.

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  4. Gah, and Bah must be right at the moment.
    You are doing So well with all of this, I am amazed and in awe.
    Keep doing just what you are doing, and do take some time to be looked after, by somebody, anybody. Your body needs it.
    Lots of love to you all xxxx

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  5. Gah, and Bah must be right at the moment.
    You are doing So well with all of this, I am amazed and in awe.
    Keep doing just what you are doing, and do take some time to be looked after, by somebody, anybody. Your body needs it.
    Lots of love to you all xxxx

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  6. Congratulations!
    A daughter! I hope that her health problems are able to be attended to soon, and that You, B and Leo can enjoy her at home.
    The issues with the bankruptcy cannot be helping, and I really hope that will soon be sorted.
    You and B deserve to be the loving parents you are to Leo and now Eleanor with out all the other stuff.
    Take Care, Angela Australia

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  7. Congratulations!
    A daughter! I hope that her health problems are able to be attended to soon, and that You, B and Leo can enjoy her at home.
    The issues with the bankruptcy cannot be helping, and I really hope that will soon be sorted.
    You and B deserve to be the loving parents you are to Leo and now Eleanor with out all the other stuff.
    Take Care, Angela Australia

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  8. Aaw Ally, you must be under so much stress :-( Look after yourself and take no notice of bossy midwives, it's not your fault if her colleagues can't communicate.

    Hugs to you all!

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  9. Aaw Ally, you must be under so much stress :-( Look after yourself and take no notice of bossy midwives, it's not your fault if her colleagues can't communicate.

    Hugs to you all!

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  10. Hugs to you all. Things will get sorted, and Eleanor will be fine soon. The meddling midwives are a pain. I had a bit of a personality clash with the second one, & I'm totally sure that if I had had a better one Son 2 wouldn't have been born so early. I'm thinking of you, and have just sent up a prayer for you all. Huge Hugs

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  11. Sounds like a difficult time for you all, which I'm sure won't go on much longer.

    Good thoughts to all, as usual.

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  12. Sounds like a difficult time for you all, which I'm sure won't go on much longer.

    Good thoughts to all, as usual.

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  13. Hey you're hardly the only hormonal, exhausted, distressed mother of a sickly newborn, worrying herself half to death, that Bossy knickers is going to come across. Thank God it was you she first horrifically offended and not someone with the kinds of brothers who take thing into their own hands.

    Smile. You may have blessed her 100-fold - with the polish to her skills and her empathy that will allow her to one day be truly magnificent at her job, with softening of her pride and thoughtlessness to make her a better person, and with saving her from other mothers brothers (!) and saving other, less amazonian and less wonderful distressed new mummies from dealing with such a hard cow.

    100 million brownie points you, oh most honoured tool of higher powers.
    :P

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  14. Hey you're hardly the only hormonal, exhausted, distressed mother of a sickly newborn, worrying herself half to death, that Bossy knickers is going to come across. Thank God it was you she first horrifically offended and not someone with the kinds of brothers who take thing into their own hands.

    Smile. You may have blessed her 100-fold - with the polish to her skills and her empathy that will allow her to one day be truly magnificent at her job, with softening of her pride and thoughtlessness to make her a better person, and with saving her from other mothers brothers (!) and saving other, less amazonian and less wonderful distressed new mummies from dealing with such a hard cow.

    100 million brownie points you, oh most honoured tool of higher powers.
    :P

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  15. Let us know if there is ANYTHING we can helpfully do. We're both thinking of you, and think you're amazing for coping with all of this. What tea and cake said - in awe.

    xx

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  16. Let us know if there is ANYTHING we can helpfully do. We're both thinking of you, and think you're amazing for coping with all of this. What tea and cake said - in awe.

    xx

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  17. Congratulations on the birth of Eleanor. I guess Leo hasn't seen her yet? Don't forget to take pix - even of her in the incubator. I don't have any pix of my littlest one because she was all tubes and stuff, and I really regret it now. It was part of her life, and I have no record of it.
    Take heart - Rachel was breathing but not absorbing enough oxygen from the lungs into her bloodstream, and now she is a bonkers (almost) 4-year old with more energy than all of us put together.

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  18. Congratulations on the birth of Eleanor. I guess Leo hasn't seen her yet? Don't forget to take pix - even of her in the incubator. I don't have any pix of my littlest one because she was all tubes and stuff, and I really regret it now. It was part of her life, and I have no record of it.
    Take heart - Rachel was breathing but not absorbing enough oxygen from the lungs into her bloodstream, and now she is a bonkers (almost) 4-year old with more energy than all of us put together.

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