Wednesday, 23 July 2008

rant


I would like a rant please.

I LOATHE being this dependent on other people to do things for me. I *hate* having to ask B to lift things, pick things up, hang things up, all that kind of thing. I feel trapped, because even driving - specifically the movement of my foot and leg to put the clutch out to change gear - is agony. Even walking is hard.

It feels as if something - probably the baby's head - is pressing down in the middle of my pubic bone, and that the bone is going to split apart. It's painful even sitting down.

I am taking paracetamol and apparently rest is the answer. I am going to see the GP on Monday to discuss stronger forms of pain relief - apparently they may prescribe co-codamol for short periods during pregnancy. That's fine, on the one hand. On the other hand, I'm a bit sensitive to opiates and will end up feeling like I'm flying.

B is fed up because there is so much for him to do.

I am fed up because I can't do any of it.

And we've lost a six week old chick today. We thought we'd lost two - but by climbing up the bank and listening very hard, we managed to find it and herd it back to it's mother. This, of course, didn't do me very much good at all.

Oh bollocks.

12 comments:

  1. Aww, hon! You know it's not going to last forever, right? Even if it feels like it is at moment.

    I don't want to come on all preachy and "holier than thou" but if the Drs say rest, then rest you must, as much as you feel able.

    I have some experience in dealing with "independently minded*" women under doctors' orders and although you may "loathe" being dependent on people at the moment - it is only temporary.

    *for "independently minded" read bloody pig-headed!!

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  2. Aww, hon! You know it's not going to last forever, right? Even if it feels like it is at moment.

    I don't want to come on all preachy and "holier than thou" but if the Drs say rest, then rest you must, as much as you feel able.

    I have some experience in dealing with "independently minded*" women under doctors' orders and although you may "loathe" being dependent on people at the moment - it is only temporary.

    *for "independently minded" read bloody pig-headed!!

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  3. Hang on in there. It will all be over soon, not that that's any consolation.

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  4. Hang on in there. It will all be over soon, not that that's any consolation.

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  5. Rant away, it has to make you feel better.

    I can only offer encouragement, not having been there, but it's finite, just keep telling yourself that.

    GoodTwin

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  6. Rant away, it has to make you feel better.

    I can only offer encouragement, not having been there, but it's finite, just keep telling yourself that.

    GoodTwin

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  7. I suffered badly in both pregnancies so can totally sympathise. Trying to rest isn't always possible but have you seen a physio as they helped teach me how to get out of bed much easier etc.

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  8. I suffered badly in both pregnancies so can totally sympathise. Trying to rest isn't always possible but have you seen a physio as they helped teach me how to get out of bed much easier etc.

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  9. Bollocks is right, I'm afraid, and all the other expletives, it is bloody painful and, erm, you can damage yourself by not resting, you know?
    Preach over, for now.
    But, being a granny and a mummy myself, I Know I would want to help, and would be very put out not to know the extent of your situation, and have the chance of offering at least to Be There. Yes, even if I had just lost the love of my life. I would.
    much love, and many hugs, Karen xx

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  10. Bollocks is right, I'm afraid, and all the other expletives, it is bloody painful and, erm, you can damage yourself by not resting, you know?
    Preach over, for now.
    But, being a granny and a mummy myself, I Know I would want to help, and would be very put out not to know the extent of your situation, and have the chance of offering at least to Be There. Yes, even if I had just lost the love of my life. I would.
    much love, and many hugs, Karen xx

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  11. Having to depend on other people makes you feel so, I don't know, demeaned, if there is such a word. Your brain knows that this, too, shall pass, but your emotions are down on the floor screaming and kicking and pounding with your fists at the injustice of it all. I guess all you can do is grit your teeth and get through it.

    Kahlil Gibran said something about sorrow carving you out so you can hold more joy. I think that's true of most of the almost unendurable things we have to face sometimes. And, maybe because I am not a quiet accepter of my fate, I think the fighting and ranting is part of what makes us stronger.

    Hugs, Ally. I am mentally, and very unobtrusively, doing things for you. So don't be alarmed if a cup of tea levitates itself into your hand.

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  12. Having to depend on other people makes you feel so, I don't know, demeaned, if there is such a word. Your brain knows that this, too, shall pass, but your emotions are down on the floor screaming and kicking and pounding with your fists at the injustice of it all. I guess all you can do is grit your teeth and get through it.

    Kahlil Gibran said something about sorrow carving you out so you can hold more joy. I think that's true of most of the almost unendurable things we have to face sometimes. And, maybe because I am not a quiet accepter of my fate, I think the fighting and ranting is part of what makes us stronger.

    Hugs, Ally. I am mentally, and very unobtrusively, doing things for you. So don't be alarmed if a cup of tea levitates itself into your hand.

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