Tuesday, 18 July 2006

here and now

It is nearly dark outside.

It is very quiet.

I am sat with the front door open and only the glow of the screen - it's spoiling my night-sight and so I think it's actually lighter out there than it looks.

Our adoption worker rang this morning to book our next assessment session.

Simpkin is asleep on the sofa beside me, making small cat-snurfling noises.

The fermenting wine is plopping away gently to itself in the kitchen.

It is cool.

It is peaceful.

B has gone away for a few nights for work. But he will be back.

The faint scent of geraniums from outside the open kitchen door and lavender from the windowsill is filling the room.

I have just realised that inside myself, I am happy.

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  1. I'm actually quite choked at your realisation, you sod!

    Good for you.

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  2. I'm actually quite choked at your realisation, you sod!

    Good for you.

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  3. What a lovely, peaceful picture you've painted. I am so glad you are taking the time to appreciate it, or, as we say, to stop and smell the roses.

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  4. What a lovely, peaceful picture you've painted. I am so glad you are taking the time to appreciate it, or, as we say, to stop and smell the roses.

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  5. Not only is it cool that you're happy, you're even taking the time to notice it. Double cool.

    Although you do realise don't you, that once the adoption goes through, there will be no more peaceful nights like this?
    :-)

    Enjoy it.

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  6. Not only is it cool that you're happy, you're even taking the time to notice it. Double cool.

    Although you do realise don't you, that once the adoption goes through, there will be no more peaceful nights like this?
    :-)

    Enjoy it.

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  7. Ally, you made me cry. It made me remember those time when I suddenly realised that I was happy and that some people felt like that all the time. Now I feel like it most of the time it takes a post like yours to make me realise how lucky I am.

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  8. That's great Ally, I'm happy for you :-)

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  9. That's great Ally, I'm happy for you :-)

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  10. Ahh the wonderful elusive thing...

    Even dead shrews aren't intruding?

    Hurrah!

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  11. Ahh the wonderful elusive thing...

    Even dead shrews aren't intruding?

    Hurrah!

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  12. Hooray! Good for you Ally.

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  13. Happy is good :)

    Is the new place starting to feel like home yet?

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  14. Happy is good :)

    Is the new place starting to feel like home yet?

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  15. What a lovely place tobe (both mental and physical). Michele sent me

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  16. It sounds wonderful! I'm happy for you :-)

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  17. It sounds wonderful! I'm happy for you :-)

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  18. Boy - The dead shrews are rather a downer, I admit. And I feel so SORRY for them. But cats are cats are cats and killing things for fun is what they do.

    I've collected two dead ones and one live one this morning - it sat beside the sofa and watched me eat my breakfast before tootling off on it's little wheels around the skirting board.

    Andrew - I know :).

    Christine - It's strange, isn't it? We can spend so much time searching for happiness and then all of a sudden, there it is, inside.

    Everyone - thank you.

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  19. Boy - The dead shrews are rather a downer, I admit. And I feel so SORRY for them. But cats are cats are cats and killing things for fun is what they do.

    I've collected two dead ones and one live one this morning - it sat beside the sofa and watched me eat my breakfast before tootling off on it's little wheels around the skirting board.

    Andrew - I know :).

    Christine - It's strange, isn't it? We can spend so much time searching for happiness and then all of a sudden, there it is, inside.

    Everyone - thank you.

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  20. Good. Happiess is too rare. Simple really, isn't it? Why don't we feel like that all the time?

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  21. Good. Happiess is too rare. Simple really, isn't it? Why don't we feel like that all the time?

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