Friday, 12 May 2006

nerves

It is twenty to six. In the morning.

This is not a time I have much truck with normally unless work forces me to.

However, I am so nervous about the adoption agency meeting later on today that I have been lying awake since five. I have just got up and made myself a cup of tea and am trying to type quietly - I have come back to bed and B is still asleep beside me. (Yay! for laptops).

The sky is a beautiful mix of pink clouds on a delicate blue out of the velux windows and the Liverpool skyline across the river is wreathed in early-morning mist.

Betty the kitten is balanced on top of the open window, supervising the sunrise.

I feel slightly sick. There's rather too much going on.

The surveyor is coming to value the house for the remortgage at eight-thirty. He could either do then or eleven, which clashed with our adoption meeting. Then this afternoon we have a meeting with Marketing Guru (notice I have stopped calling her 'Marketing Bird'. She seems to deserve a rather more competent nom de guerre). Then this evening we are going out to dinner with an old friend from South Wales that I re-connected with through FreeCycle.

We had a long discussion last night about the Potential Country House. We are both having the blue yips at the idea of of taking on such a large mortgage. There are a couple of other places that we like that we have decided to try to have a look at over the weekend, before the auction. They both have barns attached that could be made in to a holiday-let type cottage with relatively little fuss. Even with only fifty percent occupancy, a scheme like that would mean that the mortgage was virtually paid each month, which is much less scary.

The deadline of the auction has forced us in to a position where we are making decisions about our future rather quicker than is comfortable for either of us, despite the motivators of having children placed with us and getting away from the irrationality of Cat Hating Neighbour.

Now I've emptied my head, I think I might try to go back to sleep for a bit. I *really* need to be awake enough later to wash the kitchen floor before the adoption worker arrives :).



11 comments:

  1. Kind of a busy day, eh? I hope everything goes well for you and B today - at least you can go out tonight and relax.
    Remember to breathe (!) and if at all possible try to stay as calm as you can. A good therapeutic scrub of kitchen floor might do you good!
    *hugs* Good luck for today!

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  2. Kind of a busy day, eh? I hope everything goes well for you and B today - at least you can go out tonight and relax.
    Remember to breathe (!) and if at all possible try to stay as calm as you can. A good therapeutic scrub of kitchen floor might do you good!
    *hugs* Good luck for today!

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  3. Like Snow White stepping over the threshold of a strange cottage in the woods.... not knowing who or what lives in there.

    OK so a load of Doctor Whos might be stranger than seven dwarf miners.

    I am sending bucketloads of spring sunshine to you! Enjoy the nice people, doing a hard job for really heartwarming reasons.

    GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!

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  4. Like Snow White stepping over the threshold of a strange cottage in the woods.... not knowing who or what lives in there.

    OK so a load of Doctor Whos might be stranger than seven dwarf miners.

    I am sending bucketloads of spring sunshine to you! Enjoy the nice people, doing a hard job for really heartwarming reasons.

    GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!

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  5. Fingers crossed for you!!

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  6. Hugs and good luck.

    What will be will be.

    (((Hugs)))

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  7. Hugs and good luck.

    What will be will be.

    (((Hugs)))

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  8. My face in screwed up while I think good thoughts and send them your way. All my appendages are duly crossed. Frankly, I fail to see how anyone could not be charmed by you and predict that you will bowl the agency over with your maturity, strength of character and all round wonderfulness.

    Now get yourself a cup of tea and stop fretting!

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  9. My face in screwed up while I think good thoughts and send them your way. All my appendages are duly crossed. Frankly, I fail to see how anyone could not be charmed by you and predict that you will bowl the agency over with your maturity, strength of character and all round wonderfulness.

    Now get yourself a cup of tea and stop fretting!

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  10. I hope today goes really really well for you both. And you're doing completely the right thing, in my book, by trying to look around at a few other places while you have chance, just to be sure. Apart from anything, the idea of having the mortgage paid by tenants has got to be appealing, especially if it meant you could ease up on work when you get children placed with you. Note 'when', not 'if'. You'll knock 'em dead. :)

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  11. I hope today goes really really well for you both. And you're doing completely the right thing, in my book, by trying to look around at a few other places while you have chance, just to be sure. Apart from anything, the idea of having the mortgage paid by tenants has got to be appealing, especially if it meant you could ease up on work when you get children placed with you. Note 'when', not 'if'. You'll knock 'em dead. :)

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